Making room for the my beautiful new rocks
Apr 11th, 2009 Posted in Being in the process | one comment »Intellectually I understand that to make room for the new I have to let go of some of the old. It appears however that I quite like the old as well. This seems to be keeping me stuck where I am, in limbo.
I’m not sure what comes next. I just have a really strong sense that I’m going to have to give up something I like to be able to get the new stuff that I want. This is not so fun. It’s like the advice that sometimes you have to stop doing the fun stuff that’s also good for your business in order to do the stuff that’s really going to let it grow.
Like the analogy of the glass jar with the rocks, pebbles, sand (& water).
I think I’ve got quite attached to some of my pebbles. I’m scared to let them go. Each pebble represents an opportunity, a door that I’m holding open. I’ve always had an aversion to closing metaphorical doors out of fear of losing that one magical path to happiness.
The way forward?
I think it would be to spend some time being honest with myself about what are rocks, pebbles and sand. Then be honest about how many pebbles and how much sand I can keep in my jar once I’ve given the rocks their space. I may have to say goodbye to some pebbles, and reduce the amount of sand I use.
I’m uncertain how I’ll feel about that loss. In part it’s freeing, but it’s also destabilising, which equals scary.
