Yep, when I start just blogging what I’m thinking about you get a random assortment of multiple posts in a day.  You can thank Joely for setting a precedent on that one.

What am I doing at the moment?

Panic: What have I forgotten?  What am I supposed to be doing?

Me: Nothing.  We’re practicing doing nothing, just being.

Panic: But what’s the intended outcome?  How do we know when we’ve done it?

Me: We don’t.  We’re just hoping to get still enough to see if anything interesting happens.

Panic: But if nothing interesting happens is that because we haven’t got still enough, or because nothing interesting is *going* to happen?

Me: I don’t know.  We can’t know.

Panic: So when are we finished?

Me: I don’t know.  We can’t know.

Panic: Stop that! I don’t like that!

Me: Scary isn’t it?

Panic: Yes! Yes! Please can we pick something to focus on?

Me: Nope.  Just going to be for a bit.  Wanna do another 30 days meditation thing again? Or promise to make one dance vid a day? Or set up a blogging schedule?

Panic: Oh, yes please. That would make me feel better.

Me: Well we’re not going to.  Tough.  They don’t work.  Scratching that itch just makes it worse.

Panic: But..buh-

Me: …

Man this stuff is hard and sucky.  If anyone out there thinks not having a job is easy – you try it.

Want to see more? Try one of these posts:

• Following a thread as far as I can
• Living in the past
• Holy Crap! I know what I want!