@Sarah – big hugs back at you, thinking you’re the only one has to be one of the most crushing experiences I know – thank you.

And I can totally, totally relate to feeling like that in high school. Actually, more like every school. The situation and the details might differ, but when you said “the horrible sucking black hole that I can feel in my chest”, I just thought…I know your pain. Your big, scary, overwhelming pain.

Oh hug. I’m in such a similar place to you.

You are so not alone.

Over the years I’ve seen many people wanting a thing like Amnar or wanting to get themselves sorted out and they keep going to other people for advice. I wonder if maybe it’s all about not listening to other people – because they can’t know your heart – and just listening to you. If you feel empty and confused and directionless, just be with the emptiness and confusion. Just let it sit there until it goes. It’s ok to be empty and confused. You know what you’re doing, even when you don’t.

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So at the moment, I guess my goal is to work on getting to the point where I want to make the changes. And being ok with not wanting to in the meantime.

That kind of sounds right, but it also leaves my head feeling kinda empty and confused. For now, I’m going to run with that being a sign that it’s right, if only because the usual assumption that it’s wrong hasn’t served me too well so far.

What gets me reading this is “Somebody else gets it.” And that’s good. You get there. One day something goes snap in your head, and you let it all go. You can never really know what’s going to make the snap happen, and sometimes you don’t know until Post-snap. It’s all good.

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