I want to write but I’m not able to

Saturday, February 28th, 2009

I haven’t written to anyone in a while.  Not on twitter, not on my blogs, not in the forums.  For some reason just thinking about writing makes me feel very, very tired.

I don’t know why, I’m doing lots of stuff offline instead at the moment (just jointly laid a laminate floor).

I’m feeling bunged up, literally and figuratively.  I’m also feeling disconnected, but I’m still reading about you all I’m just not out there being chatty like I usually would be.

I’ve been feeling bad about it all because I miss everyone, but right now I think I need to go inward more to come back out again or something like that.

Heh, even I’m not convinced by all that (apart from the ‘missing everyone’ part).

I don’t know what’s going on, but drowning might be a good analogy.  Why?  I don’t know, that’s just how it feels right now.

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7 comments

chas:
 1 

it’s all good, james, life ebbs and flows. i think of you whenever i see andre lappe’s mug!

chas’s last blog post..friday afternoon update! 19: life is just a dream

February 28th, 2009 at 5:28 pm
onesmudge:
 2 

It’s a pandemic at the moment James, we’re all feeling it.

Love you buddy.

onesmudge’s last blog post..bottom

March 1st, 2009 at 6:16 am
Joely Black:
 3 

Maybe there’s a should there? You don’t have to write or be present if you don’t feel like it. Dude, it’s all fine.

Love,

J xx

Joely Black’s last blog post..Whoosh, and it all happens so fast

March 1st, 2009 at 11:25 am
James | Dancing Geek:
 4 

@chas – I’m all for accepting that the wheel turns, but can it not turn a bit faster when I’m on the down part?! :P
It seems that just over a week is my usual down time, but I wonder if I can change that by taking more smaller breaks – only time will tell.
It’s not that I think it’s bad to be quiet but I really miss the interaction with everyone when I stop being able to write.

@smudgerooni – wooooo! *happy dance* It’s great to see you here and it’s great to see you blogging. Remember, if I can help you, you just let me know.

@Joely – I’m unsure about the should question. The bit that was bothering me was mostly that I missed interacting with you all in the different places. A little bit of me was also worried that by going silent I would be forgotten or ‘let go’ but it felt more like a will to fight what is (that I’m too tired right now) rather than a should to blog. So at least in that respect I’m doing well with the shoulding on myself! :)

I wanted to write and interact, but I knew I was too tired so I needed to rest instead. Resting when I need it is ok, soooo… hmm, me thinks a fear is lurking. Hello fear! This would be the old no-one will like me if I’m really me wouldn’t it?! Come and sit with me a while. :)

March 1st, 2009 at 6:01 pm
Shannon:
 5 

A wise man once told me to “let it be a practice in just being”. (and you were never forgotten, you heard about the shoelace & shoving scheme)

Glad to see you on again. :)

Shannon’s last blog post..Shannon_: Saw this video on @Dooce’s site. Poor pooch… funny, though. http://tinyurl.com/ally3a

March 2nd, 2009 at 6:30 am
Alex Fayle | Someday Syndrome:
 6 

Perhaps this is an opportunity to look at why you ebb and flow – what do you get from being all or nothing? What brings on the tiredness? If you want an MSN chat to help figure it out, let me know!

Alex Fayle | Someday Syndrome’s last blog post..Do you double-standard yourself to death?

March 2nd, 2009 at 7:08 am
James | Dancing Geek:
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@Shannon – who’d have thought a shoelace could make me so happy!

@Alex – I feel a post coming on…

March 2nd, 2009 at 3:39 pm

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