Day 19: Remembering to stop trying so hard
Meditation to music
Being in the moment can actually be a really good way to listen to music. Rather than hearing an overarching tune (which can often take ‘too long’ to play out) you can listen to just exactly what is being played at any one moment in time. The harmonies, the timbres, the layers of perception at each instant in time can be engrossing.
As an alternative to either trying to see the big picture all the time or being completely lost in the moment, to be so very instant focussed in a conscious way strikes me as a very positive state.
Practising letting go…again
I found myself searching my meditation today, asking it questions, looking for answers. Since this act itself breaks the meditation I have to remind myself to trust the process or rather actually do the process as it has been taught and to test the outcomes of it out for myself. Lots of frowning as I try to hold on to ideas and find answers and then relaxing and half-smiling as I remember that this is my time for consciously practising letting go and nothing else (though maybe one day I will be able to remember to do that more often that during meditation practice).
I’ve been writing every day (though not always publishing) about my 30 day meditation trial, and am so happy that I’ve made it to day 19, even if I feel that some days my meditation practice was not as ‘correct’ as others, the act of committing and following through has been a powerful one. I am hoping that by building my self-discipline this way I will be able to achieve more and more of my goals, even ones where the act itself is one that requires a letting go of effort!


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